My vision blurred, my breathing became irregular. Those thoughts... MY thoughts were racing, incomplete and demeaning. The lights became spotted, the music turned erratic, and the small world around me expanded before dimming.  Trembling with an array of emotions, I found myself having to run and escape. Even away from Them, I was lost and crippled. I was alone. I had nothing. Focus, just focus on something, anything. I was powerless against my mind. Beat down and tortured by hate, confusion, desperation. A movie reel of failures and demising antics at the forefront of it all. I had already surrendered, it seemed. To overcome or stand a fighting chance against this force was simply unreasonable. No, damnit, just FOCUS! Fight it! It's all in your head. The knives you feel, they are blunt. This pain, only an illusion. Do not breed these feelings; allow them to be devoured. Allow the emtpy, emotionless abyss to forever devour these doubts. Sink, let them sink.

          I've never suffered an anxiety attack like this. I still don't understand. I still can't comprehend. Forever lost.

Ready for a cheap escape
On the brink of self destruction
Widespread panic
Broken glass inside my head
Bleeding down these thoughts of
Anguish... mass confusion
The world is a sick machine
Breeding a mass of shit
With such a desolate conclusion
Fill the void with... I don't care
There's a plague inside of me
Eating at my disposition
Nothing's left
Torn out of reality
Into a state of no opinion
Limp with hate

          "Panic Song"- Green Day